Bill Zeller Suicide And His Last Words:Bill Sexual Abuse

Bill Zeller left an impact on many people around the Web after he committed suicide last Sunday. Before taking his life, he wrote about why he decided to do so.
As a child, Bill was physical and sexual abuse, which left marks on him that he could not get rid of his adult life. Even the programming was not enough to free him of all the suffering she experienced.
Here are some of the last words of Bill Zeller:
"My earliest memories of children are being raped repeatedly. This has affected every aspect of my life. This darkness, which is the only way I can describe it, has followed me like a fog, but sometimes intensified and overwhelmed me usually caused by a different situation.
"This darkness followed me as I grew up. I remember spending hours playing with legos, my world made for me and a box of cold block of plastic. While waiting for everything to end. It is the same as I do now, but instead of legos is surfing the web or read or listen to a baseball game. Most of my life has been spent feeling dead inside, waiting for my body to catch up.
"The darkness is with me almost every time I wake up. I feel like a dirt is covering me. I feel like I'm trapped in a body that no amount contimated clean wash. Every time I think about what happened I feel manic and itching and can not concentrate on anything else.
"I've spent my life hurting people. Today is the last time."